Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Missing joy...

She slipped out unnoticed one day when I forgot to latch the door.

And so I rise each day and nurse babies and make breakfasts and shopping lists and play-doh pizzas; I kiss boo-boos and sweaty little baby curls. I wipe up spills and runny noses.

But it's mechanical and dutiful and forced. These are beautiful things-- beautiful children. My God has blessed me abundantly. So why is it such a chore?

Oh, Jesus-- soften my heart. Make me content.


Gretchen said...

Been there, done that.
Praying for you, sweetie pie.
It's so hard sometimes.

Joshs_Rebekah said...

There now!

Wanna pray for each other?

Joshs_Rebekah said...

Galatians 6:9, 10 ~ And let us not be weary in well doing, for in due season we shall reap if we faint not, As we have therefore opportunity, let us do good unto all men, especially unto them who are of the household of faith.

My thoughts: If we run the race before us (Philippians) as Mamas, then in the end we will reap. Make sense?

MrsKennyD said...

I'm going through this same exact thing lately. Today was the WORST. I did not have a shepherd's heart toward my children. In fact, I would've been the one to lead them right off the cliff (not literally of course) but it gives an accurate picture of how much I just didn't care today and how much I let my flesh rule. Ugh. As a result I'm overwhelmed with guilt and feel like a horrible mother. Thank God for those mercies that are new every morning. Can't wait to start over tomorrow. Praying for you girls. Please pray for me too.

nanajobx said...

you're tired. you need your mama. can't wait for you to come down! i will give you a break

mama k said...

Funny that someone posted that Galatians verse... "Do no grow weary of doing good" has been coming to mind a lot lately. Sometimes being faithful means just that, doing what is right even when you don't "feel" like it.

Also, I find taking the time to actually get down and dirty to play with my kiddo helps. You know, really being "present" in that moment without trying to control anything. I find lots of joy in those little moments. :)

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